This is me

As i am writing this post, I think "Why am I even writing this? Kids who blog are all scrubs". I think I can answer this question myself, as you may see from my blog title, I am a pretty awkward kid. Its not that I don't have friends, or I cant talk to people. I just am awkward.

Let me explain to you the extent of this inconvenience in my life. I always have a hard time talking to people that I have never been around. It is not that I have no interest in speaking with them, its quite the contrary actually. I get to excited to get to know them that I end up talking to much and dominating the conversation, or I say something completely socially unacceptable. This also happens around girls that I like, people at stores, my boss, etc..

So lets get to the point, I hope that through writing on this blog, I can make my life a little less awkward.

I'm gonna give you a little background on my life. I was raised in the LDS church (Mormons) and I am still an active member today. I have been spiritually confused, and unsure about my religion ever since I moved to an area that was heavily dominated by Mormons. I am a sophomore in high school, I am a very smart child and have been in honors and gifted classes since the 2nd grade. I have never really performed to my full potential in school, often getting B's and C's. I am in Student Council in school and recently stopped doing drum line. Most of my friends from school are other awkward kids in student council, and a few other smart kids (Our school doesn't have asinine teachers in charge of Student Council; the advisor picks kids who will actually get stuff done.) I have a lot of friends out of state who I have met in a summer camp program.

Lets talk about this program. It's for LDS youth all over the world, and is full of attractive girls. When I got, it feels like I'm a different person, I'm not my usual awkward self, I'm outgoing, and I don't ever say stupid things or talk too much.

I have always been better at talking with more mature people, part of the reason most kids at my school think I am a teachers pet. I can just talk with them and I don't worry about anything. This is part of the reason I hate high school, everyone expects you to fit in a certain clique (I hang out with awkward hipster kids) and nothing to be wrong with you. I really cant wait until its all over, and I can leave for college (I want to go as far away as possible).

Well that's pretty much my life.